Have you ever wondered what narcissists are like when no one else is around? We often think of narcissists as people who love attention, act charming in public, and always want to be seen as the best. But what happens when they are all alone, with no audience to impress?
The truth is, narcissists can behave in strange and surprising ways when no one is watching. While they may appear confident and in control on the outside, deep down they often struggle with insecurity, fear, and a constant need to feel important. When they’re alone, they sometimes do things that reveal what’s really going on inside their minds.
When a narcissist is alone, you might think the worst they do is watch adult websites or try to spy on you. But some of them go way beyond that. They do things that are not just disgusting, but deeply shameful. If you saw it with your own eyes, you’d be shocked. That’s how twisted and disturbing some of their hidden behavior can be.
The topic for today is five embarrassing things narcissists do when nobody is watching.
Number 1: Simulating Your Death – A Narcissist’s Sick Fantasy.
They simulate your death to see how they feel about you. Yes, you heard me right. When no one is around, some narcissists go to a strange mental place. One of the easiest things they do is mentally simulate your death. Of course, not because they love you, not because they would miss you, or they are exploring some worst-case scenario. They are checking something. They want to see if they would feel anything at all. Would they feel free? Would they be able to move on and finally be happy? Would they enjoy the power they would have in the situation? Or would they enjoy the people’s sympathy for being the grieving one? Or would they feel rage because, even in death, you would still have more attention than them? They might even cry. But please don’t mistake it for grief; it is self-pity. The tears are for the narcissist left behind, not for the person who is gone.
In this sick rehearsal, they imagine people flocking to them, consoling them, or praising their strength, or not finding out who did the deed. They create imaginary conversations and funeral speeches where they still control the narrative. This fake death gives them a chance to test drive your absence while fantasizing about how to rewrite your story in their favor. It’s, of course, not love; as I said, it’s rehearsal—a sick secret ritual where your humanity is reduced to a prop for fantasy. This is how they murder you in their imagination when they cannot do it in reality.
And understand, when a narcissist does this, when a point comes in a relationship where a narcissist starts thinking about this stuff, either it is becoming really dangerous, or you have given them a narcissistic injury big enough that they feel totally powerless before you.
Recommended Book: Becoming the Narcissist’s Nightmare: How to Devalue and Discard the Narcissist While Supplying Yourself- By Shahida Arabi.
Number 2: Secret Se£xµal Fantasies – Crossing Dangerous Boundaries.
They go on a crazy s£xµal trip. When the mask comes off and no one is around, narcissists go far. They indulge in secret s£xµal fantasies they would never admit to in public. And some of these go so far off the rails. They are not just private; they are criminal, predatory, and soul-deadening. There are narcissists who watch content so degrading that it would make you sick to your stomach. Some even cross lines with animals.
Yes, bestiality. Because it’s not about attraction; you remember, it’s about the whole. It’s about domination, about doing the one thing no one expects, about shocking even themselves. You know what I’m talking about. They like the thrill of pushing boundaries that should never be touched. That’s what turns them on—the sense of taboo. The idea that they are untouchable.
They enjoy the power of secrecy, of knowing they can hide this side of them and still fool the world. And if they are in a relationship, they find their own ways to cheat without ever getting caught. They will create fake profiles, hire escorts to exchange perverted videos while acting like your royal and loyal partner. They like betraying you under your nose. It gives them a high—the secret, the deception, the danger. It is a twisted version of intimacy. But the scariest part is, even these dark trips do not satisfy them because it’s never enough. They just keep escalating.
Recommended Book: How To Kill A Narcissist: Debunking The Myth Of Narcissism And Recovering From Narcissistic Abuse.
Number 3: Private Revenge – Marking Territory with Bodily Fluids.
When they feel disrespected, challenged, hurt, or rejected, narcissists may secretly retaliate. Instead of exploding in front of you, they do something worse: private revenge. This revenge is hard to prove and violates your space in disgusting ways. For instance, they might spit in your food, pee in your closet, smear things on your toothbrush, or soil your bed sheets. It’s disgusting and humiliating, and they do it secretly. They mark your things like animals, but even animals show loyalty. Narcissists aim to degrade you. They want to contaminate your space with their hatred, betray your trust, and create a hidden power imbalance where only they know they’ve tainted your world. It’s their unseen way of showing disrespect.
You may sense something is off—that shirt smells weird, that food tastes wrong, that bathroom has a strange vibe—but you dismiss it because who would do something so wild? That’s what you will think. A narcissist would. And they would do it with a smirk. They may never admit it, but they enjoy imagining you using something they have desecrated, eating what they spit on, wearing what they urinated near. It gives them a secret thrill. You will never know, but they will, and that is enough for them.
Read More: 5 Odd Things a Narcissist Does when they hit Collapse.
Number 4: They do black or dark magic on you.
This one isn’t metaphorical. Many narcissists are obsessed with control, and when manipulation no longer works in the physical world, they try to hijack the spiritual one. They reach out to dark energy practitioners, black magicians, evil priests—anyone who promises to bind your life, curse your money, ruin your health, or cause chaos in your relationships. And yes, they pay for it. They whisper your name over candles. They send your photos to be hexed. They bury items connected to you in graveyards. They don’t see it as evil; they see it as insurance. In their mind, you wronged them. Okay, you dared to leave. You exposed them; you cut off their supply, and that kind of rebellion cannot go unpunished.
So instead of healing, they go hunting for dark rituals, for symbols of power, for secret tools that give them the illusion they are still in charge. Some of them do it alone, lighting black candles, doing incantations from the internet, or writing your name in red ink to banish your energy. Others pay professionals who specialize in psychic attacks. They don’t care about karma or the spiritual consequences of all of this. All they want is for your life to stop moving forward. And the most twisted part: when your life gets better, they panic. They start new rituals. They consult new shamans because your peace is their pain.
Suggested Book: Healing from Hidden Abuse: A Journey Through the Stages of Recovery from Psychological Abuse.
Number 5: Animalistic Eating Habits – Bingeing in Secrecy.
When no one is watching, narcissists eat like wild animals. They binge, not in a fun or casual way, but like they’re starving and out of control. It’s messy and extreme. There are fast food wrappers everywhere, old leftovers rotting in corners, empty bottles of soda or beer, and dirty dishes piling up with mold. Sometimes even bugs are crawling around, but they keep eating anyway. They eat in silence, in the dark, with crumbs on their clothes, sauce on their fingers, food on their face—no table, no manners—just shoveling it in like the world owes them something.
Why? Because binge eating gives them something people don’t: instant comfort with no judgment. It’s part of their addiction. It helps them feel full when they’re empty inside, strong when they feel weak, and loved when no one is around.
They may even record mukbang-style videos or keep secret stashes of food hidden in drawers and closets, hoarding, devouring all in private. But the shame creeps in after—the stomach pain, the mess, the regret. So they hide the evidence, throw away trash at 3:00 a.m., spray perfume on their filth, and smile like nothing happened. You would never guess the person preaching self-discipline online or posting gym selfies is the same person who ate six burgers while watching horror porn at midnight, then cried themselves to sleep. All of that sounds crazy, but it’s true.
A Book: Why Does He Do That?: Inside the Minds of Angry and Controlling Men.
Conclusion: The True Face of Narcissists.
To conclude all of this, what narcissists do when no one is watching is not just embarrassing; it is revealing. It tells you who they are when they do not need to perform. It shows you the decayed world behind the mask—the obsession, the self-destruction, the filth, the fantasy, and the fear. Because no matter how confident they appear, their private world is filled with shame, rot, and rituals of desperation. They’re not just insecure; they’re sick with power, addicted to domination, obsessed with making you feel small even when you’re not even around.
So if you ever wonder why the narcissist seems so angry when you are doing so well, so shaken when you are distant, or so obsessed with control, it is because when the audience is gone, they fall apart, and they’ll do anything to feel powerful again. Even if that means simulating your death, marking your belongings like a beast, violating sacred spaces, or summoning darkness in your name. They do not just lose control behind closed doors; they lose themselves. That is what I want you to remember.
Read More: 5 S£xµal Secrets a Narcissist Doesn’t Want You to Know.
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